A mans mantra,

I am not encircled by your imagination, or subject to your will.
I do not fit neatly in boxes you expect me to flawlessly fill.
I am perfect in my irregularities, my conscience and kind of my self and my domain.
What I do is exist beyond your horizons, beyond the bounds of your feeble brain.
I can give more than you could ever ask for, and make you forget the word take.
I am charming, expansive and strong and can excite more than one man's snake.
I exist beyond your borders outside your natural realm,
I make you wish for me, and want me at the helm.
I confound your senses and make you feel a certain tug in your pants,
you'll find beauty, grace, power, and taste in the rhythm of my dance.
I am a transient temptation that, for you, fades in the slightest breeze
but for someone someday I will fit each and every need.
It truly is your loss, dear, that you think too small
- but then again, perhaps my win, that I am free to call -
to call on men that see me for what I am; a lover alive with passion, patience and poise.
Here and there and everywhere to satisfy, and be satisfied not by Mr. Here and Now but the pick of the litter, the man who is kind, caring, masculine, beautiful and best of all employed.

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Just a little something I wrote for myself just now. I know it's goofy and suggestive, but lately I've felt invisible to some people that I find or found attractive - and today, I am going to say, it's not me. If you exist beyond the focus of someone's finite world, that doesn't make you any less beautiful, relevant and worthwhile. I am beautiful and I will be suitable for someone, someday. I rush myself so often into trying to figure things out, when it's okay to exist alone - to realize that you are the way you should be, here, now, today - a being in transition, yes; seeking to be better daily - but also, just beautifully human. I exist outside of the scope of what many men can see, perhaps I always will, but someday there will be someone who sees me for what I am, and expects me to be nothing more or less - and who finds me beautiful in the here and now. I can wait.

I hope you realize you are beautiful too, that you are my beautiful friends and I see you for who and what you are and I love and appreciate you for it. Don't fall for people who don't see what I see.

Love to you all,
AA.